beware focus your anger before it wanders elsewhere.

the ship has sailed the state has failed us. anger is like pain to focus what needs attending. focus on my back, gingerly, gingerly, funny why is ginger in gingerly? maybe i'm supposed to get ginger. i saw someone getting a ginger root yesterday, she asked me about my rainbow popcorn, said she had pure purple, amish too, you can't get it here, rich in antioxidants like all purple food. i took lulu's purple harness off. the kids love purple but she looks better without, sleek and wiggly. this morning i got the cherriot out but already asked mister you think we should? i don't think i can lift you mister. oh scary i got to take care. hope gentle. can't put hope on the world outside. got to have our own, gingerly gingerly. anger yes, fear, what if i can't keep on, i have to keep on, not too much anger, it's circumstantial, attend the circumstance, look to what needs attending. mister, drifting, i need your attention, i'm drifting too with concern, a sea of concerns, chaos normal. a black mercedes stops short in the intersection blocking the walk anger anger she's not even looking pedestrians not existing in her rich awareness i ram her with the cherriot excuse me excuse me i didn't see you she still doesn't even focus i've focused sharply she knows because she felt it through her bumper her look blank stopped however her busy life uncaring unseeing so we can pass and not be rolled over blindly. cortisol stress even within memory can incite then outer circumstance sparking conflagration frontal lobe washed flat dulled chemical tide my own eyes behind. i guess that's all do your best mister i'll do mine i'm focused on you yet i'm rather stuck inside this concern of mine.