god that was a beauty. i said mister one day i'll look back on this and think why the fuck did i have to think of the spandex hater and the border patrol in the desert of death. why couldn't just be here fully in the present tense with you who will not last til i look back. but we are humans with divided consciousness and there's no point lamenting the fact. it's just a good thing we can swim out in the calm water with the canadian goosers and we aren't dying in the desert in front of the bombing range obomba built illegally on indigenous land by the cages where they roundup the ones still alive and there are mass graves but unburied bodies don't really have graves right and the no more deaths people can't go where the immigrants are funneled, to the harshest place of passage where the government tests bombs and human endurance and criminalizes humanitarian aid.