it won't happen again like mister, i'm not that attached. but when i look at bear i feel strange, like what happened? if i had quit or been let go with mister i imagine he would have that feeling, he would have been waiting for me. bear was pensive today. on the way home i smelled the lilac hedge by the park and sniffed and said doesn't it smell good bear and she stopped and just stared at me. i asked what she wanted to do? it was time to go home. when we got to the first door she whined and i let her run upstairs. she smelled ben but he was gone. i gave her a hug and said sorry you thought he was here, and i said you know, or maybe you know, we don't have much time little bear. i hugged her and said see you tomorrow.

in about a month i'll be down to one dog. we don't have much time. i know things change but somehow i feel i've failed. i know i didn't. i helped bear grow up, and as she grew i was needed less, and then not needed. i know everything has a time, and the time of little bear is coming to a close. bear came along just when i needed a young thing to help the transition of mister. it did work out. i just feel a sadness this year of loss, maybe not for long, but i'm down to one dog.