where was the moon. night before last was the rain eclipse. last i couldn't see the moon. law helicopters hovered above the roof. i think what people do is do their thing and forget about the government but how can we ignore such evil and live free. they get on with their lives. i feel mine passing. i'm up now at sunrise, went to bed soon after sunset. i  sleep about six hours. i don't know what my thing is. it's about attention i think. attending. i'm not trying to achieve anything with deliberation or method. i seem to be adamantly rudimentary. i'm not a builder for sure. attending attention and attenuation. not making anything of solid matter. letting go of objects, or leaving objects behind, in the second place that was primary. i said to jen it's been a year of attenuation. thinking of dogs, but also a lens of attenuation. how profuse the made world is. how addicted to its own devices. how devised. i think we can't just do our own thing, that was a thing when i was a kid and i couldn't get it on yet had no responsibility, when i went seeking to remove myself from a sick household with native plants and animals attending the places left unmade. we must study evil. the plants and animals are attenuating and evil proliferates. what was called the business of empire building and seen as democratic overlaid with the bluntest most saturated and virulent self involved denial. i know i can't be a kid again, but the kid knew something i still do. this business of world making ain't right. evil is just what doesn't work for the common good, it's nothing mystical, it just uses and pollutes and exploits and explodes the natural world. it's coming down to saving life, not extracting profit, nurturing what feeds.