at bear's the neighbor was sitting on the porch lap-topping and bear came running to hug and kiss me. we walked by big al's and he barked from inside and i said me and bear are ending soon and she brought al down to the corner and we had a sweet reunion. i was telling about the changes this year and being down to one dog and i don't feel concerned, i feel something else will come like bear came in the wake of mister, but i'm feeling the losses of this year and noting deeply how things have their own time and then die or change into something else but the loss needs  grieving and right grief is observation and attention and rather than closure it's an opening.