i'm freakin right now quietly. reading how they shocked sylvia repeatedly, punishing her for being depressed, shocking her out of her center, into conformity, into suicide to escape the shocking regime. her shrink even said she needed to be punished. for what? for being depressed in a depressing society of conformity. then i sort of dread the zoom talk therapy in one hour and one minute from now. but i will never be shocked or even medicated by the society of conformity. disgusted though, yeah. and then i read that dune is a text adopted by the haters of the alt-right! how twisted things get! how insane! anyway i can't articulate all the feelings today any day these days maybe i'll take a few qualified magic drops plus talk therapy but what'll i talk about, whatever, the pandemic without, and the interiority, and the place where the two meet, the meeting place, it talks somehow for me. i suggest you stay engaged in any way you can despite the need to quarantine and the desire to isolate.

anyway i'm not that stupid. dune is not a fascist bible, it's an antifascist parable. it's about ecological devastation and revolution. it's about the defeat of the imperium. i remember now it gets really crazy later on, and yet i'd still say it's a parable, not a manifesto.