waking up, such as it is, we heard a cry outside. this peregrine falcon. i opened the fire escape door in the kitchen and silently went outside. i forgot myself and walked past the neighbor's kitchen to try to get a better picture, turning back i saw her sitting at the counter having breakfast and we smiled and waved. later i'll apologize for appearing in my boxer shorts in her window and tell her i was possessed by the beauty of the peregrine.

i listened to popular resistance a minute ago. margaret flowers and kevin zeese talking to chris hedges, giving voice to the desperate danger we're in, and under. it's not going to end well. the two party system is a two headed behemoth—the consolidation of power that is the corporate state. it's stupefying. the endless war, the failed state, the hopeless vote for nothing, against the one you hate. 

chris hedges said, referring to emile durkheim on suicide, those who seek the annihilation of others are driven by self-annihilation. that's what it feel like on the gut level. how else can reason see this existential crisis, this perversion of human society, this system of war, all against all. i was looking for that quote and found this one—

"When this ultimate crisis comes... when there is no way out - that is the very moment when we explode from within and the totally other emerges: the sudden surfacing of a strength, a security of unknown origin, welling up from beyond reason, rational expectation, and hope.