i wanna die happy, sufjan is singing from the catskills, that's the whole self-made song, and he's in a good place it sounds. this is a culture of death reaching everywhere. you can hear it in the music, even the celebration a dirge. we have to cherish life to cherish life we have to honor the dead to honor our life to honor life.

finished red pill last night before dawn. it ends with trumps election, the last one. could it be the last election? there will be revolution of some sort. there may be great, greater violence. that's the only promise of the final trump. the judge in the assange hearing says

It seems unlikely for you to make a judgement before Nov. 3 and you would have to bear in mind that the future is uncertain. Much of what we say about Trump is because this proceeding was initiated by Trump,….and some elements of the case would be worse if Trump were there [re-elected].

it seems there is no accounting for human nature in the aggregate. we can only have faith in love. there's nothing else to save us.

do you feel a stranger in your own life? do you feel part of an invasion? tell me how you feel, you don't have to say it aloud.