funny, i found a planet dog golf ball and lulu loses it but she finds a real golf ball firmly embedded in dirt under grass just peaking up. 
i get my bike back from a week in the shop and directly get a flat. now i can't get back in the shop and i hope ben can fix it. i walked too much last week and yesterday in the dunes. 
i just can't process any more. i want to go back to reading book to book, day to day, walk to walk, i'm not a mover and a shaker, i'm not a real anarchist, i'm a sympathizer, there's something inevitable about all this and the ony way i can think about it is through rumination, reading, and picturing, along with the dreams i forget on waking. 
lulu is a pleasure. lulu dreams her dreams right alongside me.
updat. bear's dad ben fixed my flat lickety split. i'm a lucky dog, i hope.