saw that movie official secrets last night, sad bummer, the illegal war was not stopped and still goes on 20 years later. now it's a movie about how we acquiesce to power and lies, how the the world lives and dies. and the daily horoscope says—
Heaviness may establish itself in your heart and mind today as you contemplate your duties in the present and the uncertainties of an unknown future. 
last night i didn't dream of the trump army or the forever war, but my gut was distressed and the moon was full and beaming in the window. i got up many times to pee. the fruit box contained some innocuous looking green peppers that burned with green seething fire my hands were radiating hours later. that and ice cream and the full moon. and a general feeling that things are not going to go well in my gut—that in truth we are disgusted and disgruntled, seething and writhing in a man-made hell.  
but when i put heavy in my search the puter comes up with mister too, who always alleviates the weight.
the poem that arrives in my box this morning is titled in the middle of the burning.
the place that never was except a burning learned