it's the scorpio new moon tonight. invisible dark energy transforming energy. i been down- dug-down, but after a burnout yesterday when i thought i was mentally and physically broken, after i moved through a five walk day rather smoothly, except when lulu went bonkers over an utterly sweet implacable golden, and i had my second hydrogen peroxide bath, i feel (i know, again, eh?) my body is returning from that dark. ginger, the deep fire root, helped greatly. ginger has a fiery power to move energy through the body. helps with psychic development and protection. ginger fortifies deficiency.
it's always about releasing the past. fire, transformation, death of something we no longer are. to step into what we become. all of this sounds right and familiar to what has been brewing in me. the fungus is an agent of dark transformation, shedding skin, revealing new skin, jettisoning some toxic elements of the past, recovering balance, resilience. 
the new moon asks, can you both let go and trust? i guess you have to. trust is letting go, letting go, trust. 
i feel burned from within, i feel a tentative renewal. the tincture of time is working in me now, it's no longer just a phrase.
what i read is that i'm not just going crazy, something else is happening.