wudju say? 
i was just thinkin'. it should be themocracy, it's only dem colloquially, for dem who think they could be like them. anyway, i get sick of thinking about the sham, but i guess my thoughts still leak out.
actually in the bath i was thinking more about that guy that died. he was actually younger than me. i was thinking how it could happen to me, then thinking i already crossed that stream, but that's absurd, it could happen any day. then i was thinking about my brother who said since he had a cancer he should be dead so he's now living more like he was before. i guess it's about how we're grateful, how we celebrate being alive. some spend it wildly, some want to save. it seems the majority wants to spend it all as quickly as possible so that nothing is left for anyone else to have or waste.