we just heard of a fellow who died at my age. though i've thought about death more or less consciously all my life i've never woke up thinking i might die today. i have thought going to bed i wish i could sleep forever and never have to wake up. i have thought i could die any day, but i never felt it could be this day. when i think i might die i have a keen interest in living so it's a good thing. i know i should feel bad that this fellow died, and i do, but if i died i'd rather someone say, i'm so grateful that i live.
anyway, what i started out to say with this post, what i meant to say was, i'm sorry buddy, but we are living in a dying civilization. and that makes me feel sad for the ones who are still young.