so now we're using tear gas on children at the border, and the border guards are authorized to kill. this is not israel, or saudi arabia. this is america. i know we have always been a ruthless military force in this world, yet something about this particular time feels like there will be no going back, to even the illusion of peace and civility. if we can still feel shame in this brutal and shameless land let us bow our heads and feel it now.