r. says i'm less crazy with my hair short. voice in my head goes, gulp, how crazy was i? i feel crazy now, and my hair is growing again, and my brain itches. yet it's numb. numb is not sane. all this may be beyond shearing or shagging. it may be the brain responding to anthropogenic climate change, the entropy of human weather, the mental free fall of climate madness. as the outside changes the inside, as the change of politicians changes hope to despair. how do we stay sane, in an insane culture? i try growing my hair, cutting my hair, in the end it's the same, i was crazy already, but in an insane culture you better be crazy, or you're like to go insane.