i'm having protest dreams, but ah me, i'm not doing anything. i dreamed about suicide too. there was someone coming to pick up books, and r. put one face down. i turned it over and it was on suicide. i flipped it back over and put an object on top, then thought, oh but they can't read, it was an animal. i thought i know why the protest, the genocide, and i know why the suicide, the book i'm reading, molly, and the animals, i think when there's nowhere to go that's where you go. animals will make suicides.  and aaron bushnell he wasn't a suicide, wasn't mentally ill, he was committing the ultimate act of protest for the genocide, the ecocide, the omnicide, the societal suicidal genocide. also kes was gone and returned only to be heavily harassed by crows again. and it was thunder and lightning all night.