so. suddenly i notice how big moon has grown. now i know grandma has been here two years and is leaving to resume her previous life, i know we have been here these two years of moon's life too, and i feel this upwelling emotion. i think of how i was as a kid, how shy i was of people, how animals called me outside of myself, into the world, and how i came into the animal world but stayed shy of the human, how i still need the animal companions in that world. how the human world has remained frightening, and how the animals have helped me to be myself within it.
i think of moon in the world of people, shy and lucky, finding dogs to love and guide her on her way.