i'm curious to know how bear will feel when the walks stop. i hope she doesn't think i don't care and i abandoned her. ben said she missed me a lot during the family emergency. it would be better if she doesn't miss me like i miss her. 

 my phone is scrambling messages and not even identifying the caller. i went to the dollar store and he said he never heard of anything like that before. is it my karma communication? 

 i learned the book to write as if already dead is autofiction. i didn't think of her other books as such. i thought they were genre-defying, or just writing. i didn't like it as much. 

 i'm gonna look to another picture. sometimes themes pop up unannounced. you don't have to think about themes anyway unless they pop up unannounced.