what if i can't understand what constitutes evil and what is simply regular people wanting to make a profit, no matter who is hurt? what if there is no evil and no mitigation? what if i can't bear to live in such a world that makes agent orange to destroy a country and its generations and then turns and does the same thing to it's own people and is free to continue business at home and the world. if business is just business when it destroys people and the environment then what constitutes evil? is it only a way of characterizing the normative business of the country? why would i want to characterize toxic business as evil. what good would it do me? why should it still shock me that death is business?

i've had this conversation before, and apparently i say the same thing every time. isn't that characteristic of the insane? it's alright, it's not that different really from acting sane. it's just the opposite side. i do wish this moment and from now on i could erase the film of agent orange from my mind.