the water was so cold. this picture was the other day. it was more blue today. and cold. the sun was so hot, the water so cold. i got used to the water. i don't have a picture of it. i sat apart and looked . i felt apart. people smiled but i don't know if they smiled at me or at something somebody said or generally at the situation. a young girl waved at me in the water and i knew she wasn't waving at me but i already waved back. hello, hello. i could have been waving at somebody. the kid didn't know, assuming probably. it was a pleasant situation, a circumstance, place. i was there. apart or solitary, not alone exactly. that person from iran i gave my email a time before wasn't there. i feel like that person disappeared but was just not there probably. at some point almost right away one doesn't expect to get an email from a person. that's perfectly fine, perfectly ok. just wondering, not expecting, expecting yes but nothing. you want to be there right it could be anywhere but you want to be there specifically.