the mister fractal.

you know what a fractal is? i knew but i'm not exactly sure. my mind retains some things but mostly essences, not so much knowledge. i'm reading the baudelaire fractal and i'm on page 131 of 194, and now i think i'll look up fractal. first i want to say honestly the book is too smart for me, and it makes me feel small and sad, i mean i think i could have been smarter, maybe if, well, no matter, suffice it to say i wish i was smarter. i'll keep on going til the end, but i don't think i can get smarter, i'll get something from it anyway, some things i get by osmosis not consciously knowing when they seep in. seeping is a way of learning i spose too. you can let a book seep in right? i forget most of the words and the plot, but. maybe if i can't aspire to more smartness given my brain and my history and my constitution, maybe i can get a little wisdom still. 

1. a curve or geometric figure, each part of which has the same statistical character as the whole. Fractals are useful in modeling structures (such as eroded coastlines or snowflakes) in which similar patterns recur at progressively smaller scales, and in describing partly random or chaotic phenomena such as crystal growth, fluid turbulence, and galaxy formation.