sweet relief. i've come to depend too much on this little stage. it hinges on a fragile technological connection and could be suddenly disappeared like a dreamed bridge or an asylum seeker. i was depressed and thought something dreadful like that happened. i thought some kind of sabotage. i get paranoid in this age, so many evil things afoot. but lo, after i gave up and tried to nap my headache away this image appeared out of the ether.