i thought the moon was full last night i was so wakeful. at three this morning i was on the fire escape in my boxers taking pictures. moon was oblong but the camera makes it full. as soon as i was back in bed moon had disappeared. 

so today i am more tired than usual. if it was a full moon i might have gotten more illumination for today. still it is beautiful, and i, i am a lucky aged boy. 

today i finished in love with the world. i was trying just now to find what he said about moon. he nearly died and he was in the luminosity that everyone speaks of at the threshold. 
he says what we call death is not the end. something about awareness if death being the awareness that c0ntinues. if we are aware. otherwise we go around again unaware of where we've been.