i was thinking about race we're damned to think about race now we know we can't be non-racist if we're forced to be racist or antiracist. i grew up with racists and seeing them i never felt white, or i felt white dread, i felt alien, because they were the majority, they were the made world that made me set out to the made up world i didn't think of the term antiracist but it was naturally free of race like children and dogs are, kids are taught race, and even dogs supposedly can be. anybody can be i suppose and when it's like water to fish, or air to us, i wonder how some think, and breathe differently, so maybe that's resistance, being born differently helps one resist the dominant culture, though it can feel a curse most of the time. now consciousness is spreading like a healthier virus some say, but racism is rooted deep whatever, we're just going to see, i think there's an inevitability to our fate, though we don't know what it is, it may be too late to save ourselves unless we claim our better natures, but nature is probably indestructible even if we've warped things in our image for ages to come. if we can find our better nature we could be loved. if race hate can't be destroyed maybe it can only be risen above, like children and dogs do with ease. it's harder to undo evil than to do good because of our history, but there's more to inevitability than lynching war and the all too human hate race, and we all have to be antiracist eventually or die out as a species because racist capitalism like the pandemic and the coming pandemic will kill us all racists and antiracists alike.