i'm tired in several ways, layers. i don't think i can manage anniversaries1, from a year in the life of gessine cresspahl. it's 900 pages, and that's volume1. i get palpitations. why do long books make me anxious? why can't i just settle in for the winter? cause there's too much shit to do! and i'm tired, so tired, the tinea is wearing me down. tomorrow i got 6 walks on wincing feet...