i feel old, ravaged. last night i woke up yelling oh fuck! oh god! oh my fucking god! and clutching my leg. i musta been riding a slathered fire-eyed night mare and i had a horrible charley horse. i thought why charley horse? it's one of those things you say even in your sleep and have no idea the origin i thought maybe it's from riding a wild nightmare but why charley? it doesn't matter who the fuck cares when the goddam world is burning. fact is i was crying out like i was dying and r. had a sympathetic foot cramp at the same time and didn't even whimper. guys can't handle pain. they may be mean sumbitches outside but at night cozy in their velour nests they cry like babies gnome sane.