i know i'm not stupid but i feel stupid. at least i think i'm not stupid. at least i think i feel stupid. i don't feel so smart. i sigh some. some days i sigh the day. maybe there's different kinds of stupid and different kinds of smart. i'm not smart in money or school. i don't like those things in themselves or in how they are employed to consolidate and exploit resources like animals minerals and people. oh i'm just going to eat hummus and look out the window at the snow squall. i'm happy now let's close  for now.