penny's been laying on her back under the bed digging at the box springs. she's a whipper-snapper. it cooled off nice last night. in the middle i turned off the fan. i'm conflicted, i want to live in the city, but i feel lost in it. they say we can't go back to living with nature, but we can't go on this way. the system is too complicated, too global to return to nature. we can't go on this way. in the end it doesn't matter what they say, what we say, we can't repair the ruin of our progress and our technology. in the end it's nature's way. (and trump resumes his rallies.) what we have now is anti-democratic, anti-nature. i think we can only be stopped by natural collapse.