on the way back from the nature area i was looking out the window thinking all of this is alien to me. we said none of this would exist if it was up to us. i'm lost and confused in this antinature area which is everywhere nature is built upon or displaced. there are mounds along the highway that resemble the mounds made by indigenous people displaced long ago. these mounds are made of trash. pipes stick out i assume because to release the gas from the buried trash. i don't feel clear. i feel congested. i wish i could be content, but something is wrong with me and the world is not right. i don't know who i am in relation to this place. i've moved many times but always feeling transient, inhabiting but not belonging anyplace.
A feeling that you are carrying the world's burdens could come over you today. You may feel withdrawn, unsure of yourself, and incapable of shouldering the pressure you have taken on. daily om for sagittarius says. capricorn says i may be feeling upbeat. maybe om is just throwing stuff out there to see what sticks. i don't know about the world's burdens, i don't know about mine. i wish i could get clear.

nature area. still there, reminding me, there are still nature areas. nature is memory.