but i don't want to talk about the rich and powerful seducers, just to identify them and walk on. i can't help gleaning things as i go, sometimes things i don't want to glean and then have to expunge. porous boundaries are vulnerable to influences and influenza, parasites and antibodies. invasions and seductions and destruction. skin is always falling away and replacing itself at the same time. maybe it's the same way with creation. consciousness like nature will always create out of destruction. and humans will continue destroying creating destroying. 
as i think about deepak i realize my reaction to his worldly success is a gut level reaction, probably partly related to my father and his exclusive success that rather left us in the lurch as children he made. i did glean some useful things in reading deepak. he mentions a study of people with expanded consciousness that finds it's much more common than commonly supposed, and in common people. and that's good. he also admits in an interview he's said some outrageous things. i recal how his son followed him with his camera to an ashram and deepak got real nervous when they said he had to leave his devices behind. deepak wouldn't have gone into seclusion to get enlightenment. he didn't have to, and he didn't have to get enlightenment to make millions. he just read and studied the ancient wisdom traditions and updated the language in 90 some books and countless other products and television appearances. i think if you're human you have human foibles, and human enlightenment doesn't mean you are free, just that you see beyond the foibles of humans and the human story. being human means trying to get beyond the story, to transcend it, while still being only human.

hey anyway why can't i keep this simple more often, and just talk plainly about what's going on. perhaps you've already stopped reading, or never started. hey anyway, i hear that lots of people have been getting in trouble on a gut level, and i still don't know really what it is or if it's all the same thing or coincidence or a host of different gut troubles. mister has it too and is on antibiotics again and medicine to firm his bowels (though i assume not the pumpkin i suggested). the weather has been far too warm, and things not be thriving are thriving, and morphing, like influenzas and such. this is unprecedented weather, and our defenses are down with nature. we're destroying the balance of nature and our own bodies. what we need is resilience, for balance in imbalance, and it gets harder and harder as the system fails and nature dies around us and toxins replace nutrients.