sam says, "he looks so sad, like he's missing someone". i say, that's just the way he looks, sometimes he looks sad, then he looks happy again. 

i admit, he looks sad. then i think, is he missing me? am i too aloof? am i too much in my own head, oh god. 

then i think, oh. oh. what if he's thinking inside, and he has that red wrist-wrap stuck inside? he looks like when the rope was stuck inside and he stopped and looked at me with the same inside look.

or maybe he's just dreaming.

idle know. i know him so well...it's hard to say. i hope the red wrist wrap passes, and we can both keep dreaming together.