i should never ever look at numbers. it means nothing but self flagellation. r. says it's because of my rants about the sick fuck trump, boring and not insightful. mea culpa, i suppose it's true. my mind goes low. so. it has to be however. i can't raise the numbers, and i have to recall times when i felt so good about posting and the numbers plummeted too. just don't know. numbers and people are a mystery to me. there's no magic number, i'm just glad to keep on regardless of inspiration or rants on sick fuck trumps.