my friend k. said she's annoyed they had to open him up to diagnose pancreatic cancer. they thought there was an obstruction i said. i guess they couldn't tell the object was a clip from his previous surgery, not an obstruction, and they couldn't see the mass on the pancreas on the xrays. i'm haunted by the thought that he may have had unnecessary surgery, especially if he doesn't have much time left. but i guess they couldn't tell, i guess they don't always know. i have to think they did their best, and we all did our best. mister and i have had amazing adventures for ten years. we've been truly blessed to have been brought together by some miraculous chance, and it will be a great grief, as great as the adventure of living.