i know the park is all crossed with highway here round the island and the whole lakefront, so i feel stupid taking lulu that way, thinking dumb, she being alone all day morning til one a.m. and i feel stupid cause she got excited and a girl fell backward on her butt on a rock and i should have restrained her and i should have trained her and i keep trying to learn the same god damn lesson that i got to avoid kids and dogs though she loves them she could hurt them and i just feel stupid i can't get through to her that she's missing the things she loves because she goes bonkers. fuggit. i'm fuggin tired.