what a daymare. i really thought i was healing. wishful thinking. my foot has a long crack and hurts. i could go the cook county hospital. i had an orange card from when i went for psychotherapy and a hernia. oh god, the waiting. it's been years, i'm probably deleted. i could find a doc for cash? i'm not spose to get so sick. i'm not in the system. now i got bumps on my arms. i fear the fungus is in my blood, throughout my system, flushing through my whole skin. the skin is one big organ, it's everywhere. what will happen if the fungus consumes me? sorry, this is fucking pathetic, forgive me, mea culpa maximus. oh honey bears, my skin! life is dread.