oh grasshopper spider house. petey poppy was saying it's hard to be aware, there's such a lot to be aware of and it's evil stuff, on the other hand it's hard when you get too self-involved and tune out. but the lack of awareness is more harmful, and causes more pain. i said that's the motivation for the blog, it's a journal, and it swings between self and other and always with the hope of equilibrium. if heart is right.