you think about what it'd be like if you didn't exist. you wouldn't think the same way 
about existing. if you could would you be without a body without an itch to scratch and carry around, to put to sleep and wake up in time. would you still be a point of awareness, would you have a view. would you be the view. would you be at all and if you would would you be traveling a perpetual dream. if you didn't exist trees would still be falling, people would be still asleep, groaning out the window at april snow. one person might think of you as a person one cannot quite place in a fading dream.