talking about euphoria, a side effect, it wears off, happiness as a drug, dressed up, undressed. chasing euphoria. the day it happens, you don't need that addiction, already you got the anxious yearning, the drug is the end of yearning. oblivion. what you seek, the way out of you. start, there's no perfection, no end. a complicated beauty of a mess. that look, startled, that motion, it's the soul of a bird, that twig, the flight.
conscious people know, it's a land grab. if you are inhibited use it. if you crave use it. it's from you, connected to everything. it started long ago, before you. it's still before you, with you it's starting again. you feel it. where we left off. you. there's no place else to go.
r. said the land grab part didn't seem to fit in, and i couldn't clarify it, it started to sound like justifying it, then i said to s. i think there's some connection of the land grab to occupying the space we're in, to use it, the creative matter, the ground beneath our feet.