i have had the feeling for a long time now, more a feeling than a thought, now what am i going to do? 
that seems like a collective feeling, but i don't know. we know what we are doing collectively. we know what is being done in our name, and secretly we feel done to, we've been done to, and everyone retreats. everyone retreats into their own private grief. no one said anything yesterday including me. everyone in their own private grief. we own it as it is our own but we endowed with speech must find a language for it. 
it is our collective grief too.