i say some dumb things at the time of saying that don't seem so dumb. if i pondered more maybe i would say less more concisely or smartly but maybe not i ponder all the time i guess my brain is just dirt and it may be blighted by the fertilizer and pesticidal affluvia of this blighted pestilential culture. shit, who knows.  

anyway i don't have an editor. i have a sad little critic but i don't trust him. i just have to keep on. a few will keep checking in as long as there's something in it. i trust there'll always be something, right? 

why don't i just get to it, stop questioning. i cant stop. ok. and thanks for listening honeys.