fen was wandery today. endearingly he hugged my shadow. then occasionally he'd veer suddenly as though in pursuit of some fancy across the street. twice he led me in circles around a small tree as if playing a game and trying to catch up to me. i imagine he feels a little lost, yet he knows it, and he comes nearer, relying on me. i feel lost in my way too. when i leave him it gets harder by day. i fear that when i leave we'll both be a little lost in our way.