there are all these little scenes playing out almost unnoticed. i only notice some things afterward, thankful, given the pictures. things happen and we're caught off guard. we have to flow with the rocky parts. we can't just flow when it's all flowing nice and calm because it isn't really is it. this shit's fraught. we can't act all cool as cucumbers when there's poison in the sky and in our lungs and neurons and a mind-bogglingly evil genocide going on.