i was thinking how different dogs act differently and i follow them around trying to gain their attention and whatever i get i get. i was thinking how dogs are not so obedient with me and i'm not obedient with whomever tries to school me yet if i choose to be i'm amenable which is like obedience without the coercion and i can just let go of that and play. i was thinking how i wasn't trained into obedience and rebelled anyway. it took a lot of energy and play uses a lot of energy but makes it too and feels good whereas obedience separates. i was thinking if there wasn't so much obedience and control and everyone could be themselves i wonder how it would be.