mister is feeling much better. i don't know what's going on inside, but he's recovering from the surgery, now eating and pooping, alert and playful. my vet cousin said pancreatic cancer is rare in dogs, she's never seen it in her years of practice. i'm just going to try to be in the present and grateful for the time we have. thanks to r. mister would have to stay in the hospital whereas here he has an elevator and a warm healing place. his energy is growing. his wound is disappearing. we have time. let everyone now living be grateful for what we are and what we have, love and time, and groceries. i may get dark, i may get surly, sulky, i may not find the words of speech, i'm grateful, in my way i try, and like mister, i'm still here.