sam said he was asked to be at the harvard divinity school, but he said no, he really wants to be alone. but everybody thinks he's a hick from the sticks cause he hails from georgia. sam said at the moment there is no record whatever of him. i was telling him how i aspire to be off the grid as far as possible. i said, so you don't exist in the state. you are free. 
sam asked if i was able to get that damn flip video off my pooter. i think so i said. kumar said that was a tracking device or some such and i said sam we have to be careful in this place of lies not to get carried away, sure we know they can do anything to us, but we have to act naturally. sam said kumar was have a meeting of the thirty and i said so why was i not informed, so i'm persona non grata. he may be doing you a favor sam said. we saw no gathering, but perhaps it was going on all around us, on the astral plane. 
i am a bit worried i go blank as a page at the close of day. some stuff comes back as i write. what would i be without memory. would i be a ghost, a vegetable? a ghost though i imagine is nothing but memory. and a vegetable is a living memory. i could be anything, as long as i don't believe the hype. i got a collage back from mom- a snail with the caption, don't believe the hype. i had forgotten that too, til it was returned to me. i believe i know what it means, but it may not be what i was thinking then.

will anybody want me if i can't remember? if i remember will that save me. do we choose to remember or choose to forget?

remember the fairy circle? if you drew one around you you would be safe. 
how long could you remain in the circle? can we draw a circle in the air and carry it with us?