it seems like i was a mute kid. oh i talked, but i was mute in the main. i was so quiet i said only what i had to to pass. i wanted to disappear. they said still waters run deep but i didn't feel deep, i felt depthless. i felt lost, awkward. how can you be lost? you're right there. i was lost in the system i didn't know was a system, what a system was.