it's 1:19 and i'm obviously up. i ate the rest of the watermelon radish salad for lunch and my gut is upset with me again. moreover my head is stuffy and also i think i have the corollary to the obama effect for people who see his game—a sick feeling of powerlessness. i mentioned the robert eisenberg/chris hedges interview to jeannette saying obama is a cult figure. trump too, but in a dumber cruder way. 1:29. anyway it's more the radish and congestion than the obama effect, but it's all one. watching the ukrainian film atlantis i thought how dystopian used to be science fiction, and now it's present day, there are landscapes everywhere that are dystopian, and the ghost of the time is dystopian. it's not future, it's no future. obamaland is a dystopian landscape, and obama a dystopian cult leader. we see too late, surveying the destruction, and then we live with it, under a new leader who fills the same shoes, biding time in the ongoing apocalypse.