we were watching a movie now i forget now it was good but we looked out the window and the sky was beautiful and i thought it must be beautiful out there if we stop the movie to watch the sky and i wonder is it getting more tropical up here or is it sand dust from the desert or chemical clouds or are we looking for something to come for us? and sometimes i look at the sky and i'm suddenly out there and leaning on the windowsill or the fire escape.