i don't know what i dreamed but i woke disgruntled and with a sore throat. i felt good listening to krishna das last night but now i realize i went to sleep disgruntled. why disgruntled is complicated. yesterday dogwise was especially good. i did good. maybe i'm not such a good person though. krishna das says you do your best. easy, easy on yourself, of course, you have to be good enough. it's better to wake up fresh, but it's a continuation with a varying amount of rest. 
anyway i got up thinking about biding time, til the pandemic abates, til the protest abates, til neoliberalism has bitten the dust and choked itself out, and then i thought what do we got, biden or trump, the same brutal agenda, return to normal or it always gets worse, racist rapist number one or bummer two. or protest and pandemic staving off normalcy while nature catches a breath.

“The idea that instead of standing there and teaching a cop 
when there’s an unarmed person, coming at him with a knife or something, (say what?)to shoot him in the leg instead of in the heart (say what?). There’s a lot of different things that can change.”   
Apparently, Biden thinks the things that can change are limited to what part of an unarmed protester’s body the police should aim to shoot. The only way to read this is that Biden, an enthusiastic proponent of state violence, just wishes the cops would carry it out a bit more politely and with more plausible deniability. Either way, given his long support for racist policies and his blithe dismissal of any questioning of that record, there is no reason to believe Biden in any way stands with the protesters against racist state violence, or that the way the police terrorize Black communities would be different under a Biden administration than under Trump.