now i'm hungry but not disgruntled. it's a good hunger that knows it'll be satisfied shortly. 
i got three more books from the liberry: short life in a strange world, bitterroot, and beside myself . the liberry keeps me on my toes, i temper anxiety with excitement. i wish i could make book smoothies. but what gas would they create. nevermind that. is this my life? i'm almost finsished with these fevered days and i know how it's going to end: emily dies. i'll try the bear before the latest trio.